What Would You Do If You Weren’t Afraid
Everything. I would do everything within in reason. As long as it didn’t risk my life or another life, as longs as it didn’t intentionally hurt me or someone else.
What I have done the most this year is accomplish things alone. I have signed my own lease, gone to dinner, movies and music festivals by myself and worked on getting used to not feeling lonely in a crowd. This year I moved out on my own, had some self-destructive moments, dated/am dating someone wonderful, applied and got my dream job, moved across the country and was able to reinvent myself somewhere new. These things are monumental; these are things that over a year ago I would have never imagined myself doing.
Today I went to Hardly Strictly Bluegrass on my own. I woke up kinda tired and in the past the lethargic feeling coupled with the fact that I was most likely going to be attending an event solo where I didn’t know anyone would have been enough to cause me to stay home. BUT, I really wanted to go, my Dad is a huge proponent of the philosophy “what would you do if you weren’t afraid” and this seemed like the perfect opportunity to put this into play. Normally I would have asked around and tried to coordinate going with someone else, then if there were no takers I might have just scratched going all together… I didn’t do that, I went by myself to a part of the city I had never been to surround myself with strangers and listen to some amazing music.
Festival shows while amazing when you share the experience with others are AWESOME solo. You can flit about and see the music YOU want, want to get close to the stage? It’s easy when it is just you and it’s standing room only. A friend of mine was working at one of the vendors so I stopped by said hello and then went on my merry way. I interacted with total strangers connected through our similar music tastes and joking about our surroundings. One very nice group even offered me a beer.
The decisions I made were my own, what artists did I want to cross off my bucket list? Who would I regret not seeing, what stages had the feeling I was going for, what did I want to experience?
I saw Billy Bragg, Ralph Stanley, and Emmylou Harris, three artists that had been on my bucket list. What an amazingly beautiful Sunday adventure.